Standing at the Brink

As you probably know I have started my Senior year at Corban College. In many ways I have been looking at and thinking about this time for most of my life. At several different stages I was absolutely convinced what I wanted to do with the rest of my life. Some examples are being a youth pastor, starting a church/Young Life partnership, being a counselor, working at Wildhorse for a few years, go to Alaska for a year and the list goes on.

But here is the point each one of these time I was absolutely convinced of what I wanted to do. So what was the problem? It was what I wanted to do. I was praying for God to give me an answer but he is not obligated to give me one. Especially when its years before I graduate.

So I stand at the brink at a loss of what exactly to do. I know what I am passionate about but those can be used in various careers. And just because I am passionate about some things does that mean that I have to do something that meets all those passions? I don't think so. I believe that sometimes God can call us to things that don't meet all the needs that we desire. Because sometimes he can better use us in those situations.

Again here I am and I have only a little idea how what this next stage in my life will look like. But the thing is I am ok with it. Too often I think I make the mistake of forcing my own will instead of letting him guide me steps.

Furthermore, I don't think I need to be doing the same thing all my life. A mentor of mine who I call my Camp Dad because he very much has been a dad to me while I was at camp once told me of the different jobs he has done over the years. And how each one has prepared him for what he is doing today. Therefore wherever Jesus takes me after college that is the end. I will go on to do other things and they will be where he wants me then to.

I pray that you too are finding the peace that comes with letting go. The joy of following and the comfort of accepting.