a servan's heart

I don't know about you but it seems like for me I here the same theme in my life for a period of time. Here is what I mean. Recently I keep hearing messages on serving God, or it keeps coming up in discussion. This seems to happen and when I finally get it through my thick skull that God is trying to teaching me something. So today's blog is about being a servant.

For the last several years I have been leading somewhere doing something. I have put in somewhere about 20 hours of camps, led wyldlife for two years, led now at churches for 2 1/2 years, and been an RA for 1 1/2 years. I am no stranger to service. But does serving simply make someone a servant? Of coarse in a sense it does. But in a greater sense no. I remember when I first worked at wildhorse back in 05 I fell in love with serving God. I was doing something bigger then myself for the first time ever. I was working long hard hours for Jesus, he was my joy and my love and this was my way of giving back. But recently I think something has gone array. I still love serving but I think now its for the wrong reasons. I look for my guys to tell me that they appreciate what I am doing. I look for affirmation from my bosses that I am doing a good job. I am committing a great sin and searching for the praises of men.

So what am I to do? I sought the praise of men and fell short. I seek approval of those who should not be worried about.

Maybe you are there with me. Maybe you struggle with seeking the praise of those you respect and those who you administer to. If so join me in my prayer.

Dear Lord,

I ask that you renew my heart, mind and attitude. Make them align with yours. I am tired of seeking man's praise and not yours. Help me to see you more clearly. Help me to understand that your opinion is what matter more then anyone else's. Help my ministry not become an idol but use me Lord for your glory and your purposes. Lord help me to Love you in this and give it over to you. Ultimately, give me a servant's heart like I once had. In your name.

I pray that you will have a servant's heart!